Τρίτη, 13 Μαΐου 2014
You never know things will come up. All you can do is hope for the best. So that's what I did. And for once more I was disappointed. It could have been worse, but it wasn't what I was hoping for. Today was just a useless day. I hope I've never lived today. Goodnight.
I told him. Everything. But I'm afraid of the consequences. Why? I should be feeling well with myself but no. I am crying in an empty classroom. I feel like I did the right thing but why is it such a shity feeling? I just want everything to be okay. Is it so hard?!
Κυριακή, 11 Μαΐου 2014
In your life you will have to decide for a lot of things. But there will always be limits. These limits will either tear you apart or help you. You can't know which of the two will happen but do you take the risk? It's in your hand, it's your decision. So, what should I do?
They say "be true to who you are", but how are you supposed to do that? How can you be so sure for yourself? How can you decide who you want to be? I am not. I don't know who I am or what I am supposed to do with my (personal) life! And it's killing me. I think I know what I want but a minute later I have changed my mind. Maybe I do something wrong, maybe not. But how am I suppose to find it out? Help! Someone..?
Right now, this very moment I really hate my life. Nothing goes the way I want it. I don't know what I am feeling, I don't know with who I want to be with. It really sucks! I want to be with someone but I just can't and this tears me apart. Yesterday I said that I would like to die. I've never said something like this before. So it seems so strange that I said it. But I do not wanna be afraid, I want to express my feelings but I freakin can't! Fuck my life ...